Are You Clear About Why?

I was reading Carrie Wilkerson's newsletter about why she does what she does.  

And it got me to thinking about my last few years and why I do what I do.

A while back, my husband was diagnosed with stroke-level high blood pressure (the level at which they bring you back day to day and put you in the hospital if it does not GO DOWN!).  

This situation, along with some other devastating occurrences that significantly contributed to his stress, sent me to my knees in prayer.  

I began to see the truth – I saw the very real possibility of loosing my husband.  

I also was faced with the financial possibility of having to support myself and my son without my husband or the three of us with an incapacitated husband.  And I knew I absolutely couldn’t do it.

But truly what was worse than the immediate health need was waking up to the effects his very stressful job had had – it had been slow death of his spirit.  

And I realized without hope of changing our circumstances, which meant changing our choices, he had to resign himself to a job he had grown to hate and I would have to go back to a job that I had once loved, but knew I would grow to resent. 

Because we had both opened our eyes to the fact that working for someone else makes you dependent upon them and takes away your choices about when to work, when to take time off and how much you have the potential to earn.  

You can work very hard, but ultimately your future is in someone else’s hands. 

I could not go back to work for someone else.  I love to teach, but it was not going to give me the future we needed.

So, I decided to take what I was passionate about and create an income!

It has not been an easy road and I have not realized the full potential.  

I have not achieved all that I set out to do.  YET.

But THAT is the best part.  I have come to realize that there is never an end to what I want to do.  There is no "I have arrived."

Because I am in control, no one sets my last promotion level, my salary ceiling or top management level.

I determine how far and how fast.  And I am responsible for getting me there.

Scary?  Maybe, but I wouldn't have it any other way!

What is your Why?  Share with me!